Last night while reminiscing, I tried to recount how many soldiers I have lost along the way, I tried to count, I remember Daniel, my roommate; Gabriel my course mate, Chigozie my neighbor, Chibuzor my friend, Obum my cousin; Izuchukwu my cousin, the most painful of all; Okocha, John.. I wont want to bore you with fallen heroes but for the records, A lot have gone. And am still here today. May their souls rest in peace.
What more can I say other than than thank you Lord. Maybe at 28, You and I expected that I have gotten married to a very beautiful lady, with one or two kids in a very comfortable neighborhood, a six figure paying job and all that. Am quite an opposite of what you and I envisaged my life would be growing up but guess what? Am still a happy man with little or no regrets.
My points might be a little off point probably because am high already ( dont freak out because you think its too early to be high, am not in Nigeria now and here is 4pm already) so pardon me because its my birthday.
I meet a guy last two days at Singapore, he is 31 years old at the time of the conversation, all he had in his mouth was all complaints. from A to Z that came out of his mouth was complaints. I looked at him, I asked him if he had any disease; he said no, I asked him if he had any sickness; he said no.. then I asked him why he was complaining? When you are still healthy. Sometimes we fail to recognize what God has done for us, we fail to appreciate the little things around us. If you don't appreciate the little ones, how would the big ones come?
In my 28 years on earth, I have learnt above other thing to be happy, to appreciate the little things of life. I dance in a Catholic church these day, you know what that means right?
I do things that makes me happy so far it doesn't affect the next person. I thank God for what I know already in my life, in my little life, I have seen what am sure 90% of what my mates haven't seen and en-counted. Now you might ask how that counts.. am sure it will count when the chips are down.
If I had known, I wouldn't had taken much alcohol, maybe I would have been able to connect better with you, I wont deny that currently I have a distorted reasoning and a lot is flooding my mind and am trying to put them to words.
I just hope that the little I got out is enough to inspire just one person out they feeling down and out, feeling that the world is just against him or her. Be strong.. If I can make it, you too can.
I have had it all, so many broken relationships, so many disappointments from family and friends so many short comings from my part yet I still brazed forward. Its not by my power, its not by our power, its God.
For the first time in my life, am going to give a testimony in church on Sunday. I hope they give me enough time to get it all out because its so numerous my miracles to mention.
I thank you all my Family, most especailly my Mum, My friends- Amandi for showing me an unconditional brotherly love, Bishop, Ken, Awizar and the rest, Take a bottle of beer on me. To my readers and all well wishers.. Be Happy for a day more
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Rabbai
Good one brother. Sometimes we are are so obsessed with stuff that we forget to say thanks to God for life and good health. I wish u d best of life. The only way is Up, and that,will be ur direction. Cheers!
ReplyDeleteThank you Big Bro.. Up is our direction.
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